Ok, so I'm drunk

Finished another show at the Underground lounge, went well even though I felt distant from the crowd. My promotions are not up to snuff even though all is going well. Been getting some paid work, happy about that.

I'm becoming unglued though, my hours are late. Staying in bed most of the day feels good, however I feel exhausted and need to get up.....get out more! My life consists of comedy, eating, fucking, sleeping, eating.

I miss my old girlfriend however she did not get me, so it's on to what I think I need. Thank god watching less Porn that shit is distracting. Hum..what's bugging me? Ok...how about my "friends who own 2 clubs outside of NYC who have promised me the world yet give back nothing? How cruel is it to tell me I'm part of the family while they ignor and neglect me at the same time. Those are actions of a Monster. Using power and stagetime as a weapon not a reward. I'm not a girlfriend or Carpenter, so they can't use me? I have always made money for these people yet they figure out some way to feel jealous or angry and turn the screws on me. 

What do I do? I keep on moving forward and fight the good fight. If they want to reward hacks and punish people who do fine nice work for them, so be it...not my problem.

Ok gang, keep on keeping on. Wait...how dare these people not book me or give me what I want? I once produced a show the same day I buried my Father. Yet I'm a piece of shit to them? Again not my problem! My only problem is that I have permitted others to make me feel bad. Those days are over. Time to be the man my Father always dreamed I would become.

be well, enjoy the day people

G